Well, actually I know little about the title in both meaning and method. But, it seems that I have just finished my first truly dating in life today, 5 hours ago I think, which last for nearly the whole day. I am wandering on what I have got, what I want to get, and what I want to get next. Only one thing is obvious—23th Febrary in 2019 has been a big day in my life, a landmark, a huge progress, though I achieved nothing accutually.I care little about boys in the passed whole life since I was in middle school, the time most girls begin to think about boys. Chat among friends on love or how to be loved used to be a boring topic in my years, especially in selfstudy lessons. Until years passed by, each acquaintance I met during the Chinese New Year asked me if I have a boyfriend. I have thought over this problem carefully after I entered college and make several conclusion about the adventages and disadvantages on myself on this problem. With a little embarrassment and boredom, I occupied myself with perfessioned books and the colorful world. Maybe not everyone can love like those legend in movies, I confort myself.The boy say hello to me in swimming pool as well as ask for we-chat nember. Neither is he the first one who show favourate to me nor the first one to ask for phone number, and I felt nothing about him as usual. The different is, I thought it’s time to go for the messy problem. So I tried. Do online chat like stories or friends midnight talks, and appointed time for the first dating on the last day of my winter holiday.Today is neither the first time I go skating this winter, nor the first time I go out with a boy alone, but truly the first dating in my life when I care about things between boy and girl only through the process. An boy always want to show his gentility in face of an girl, so did this one. So I find excuses such as “to find sit in the classroom for the new sesmester” to show my shyness and hardworking and made the plan. We walked through my school in the morning, had lunch together in a restaurant I supposed, and went skating in the afternoon. I said a lot of myself, much more than he said about himself. As a result I have a pain on my throat just now.To simply say happpy or love is not the truth. Now that it is a meaningful moment as the first dating, I must find something to fulfill my attitude towards life. Firstly, this boy is not my sweet. I still feel nothing about him now and he talked a little but touched me a lot during the day. Secondly, if I can’t learnt how to love a boy in the future, just follow the boyfriend selecting rules is ok. Thirdly, to chase my own life is much more meaningful than finding a dreaming boyfriend. And finally, how to reject someone is proper and decent when he just bought you a bundle of rose which seems to be expensive?

__able

Suitable, comfortable,
memorable, unstoppable, unshakable, unbelievable, uncomfortable, invincible, available,
knowledgeable, unthinkable.

Unthinkable =
very difficult to believe

__ ous

Delicious,
ambitious, gorgeous, fabulous, obvious, harmonious, furious.

__ ful

Wonderful, helpful,
graceful, thankful, colourful, beautiful, peaceful, hopeful, deceitful, regretful.

One of my friends was deceitful to me

__ ive

Productive,
active, innovative, extensive, expensive, abusive, selective, alternative,
impressive.

Productive= achieving
or producing a significant amount or result

The guy was abusive
because he was rude to his wife in the public

Selective =
fussy

__ less

Useless,
helpless, hopeless, speechless, worthless, ruthless, careless, thankless.

Worthless =
has no value to you

Ruthless =
no compassion, very direct

Other adjective

Incredible

Being cooler though it is still hot in the day. In the night I listen to the crickets.Particularly when I am jogging around, the familiar sound soothes me. They sound uniquely and it tells the domination of autumn is getting stronger. The mid-autumn day is to end and sooner the National Day is coming. How fast it is. Year after year, day after day. After the full moon, it wanes and later is to be bright again.

Aimless is a terrible life style, you do not know what you want or even you know what you want, you do not pursue what you want because life set up a lot of obstacles in front. This life is easy to get tired too cause there is without a clear aim. Things look obscurity. For the people we have a lot of words to say but without saying it out. When there are so much words unsaid, it is not easy to guess what are the really feeling too. I want to know do love really conquer all? I doubted! Maybe I just do not meet my luck! I hope all is good!

“All is well “is one of TV play which is very popular
recently, you can see any where at Medias talking about this. It is almost the
end of story this week; I am one of these series trackers although I seldom
watch TV at home except this one.

There is the very traditional Chinese family with
three children, two elder brothers and one youngest sister, the parents were
very look up to men and down on women, preferred boys than girls. As well the
birth control policy at that period, the third child was punished a lot money
for this family, the mother was very tough and she was the master of this family.
So many of complains of house affairs was blamed to the girl, for example
during the school time, the mother forced her daughter to gave up key
university to a teacher college which was much cheaper cost and easy to find the
job after graduation to support his brother.

The elder brother was an immigrant to US for ten
years, the second boy was spoiled by his mother, he always received financial
support from parents, so the second and the girl were fighting each other at home
all the time, unfortunately the father who was so weak and selfish in this
family, he was never responsible for each one at this among of unhealthy family,
the youngest girl run away from home at her 18 years old, and she never came
back to the sad home even living in the same city for 10 years.

The surface of the family was good, but after the
mother was dead, everything was changed, unexpected things were hardly control.
The retired life and accommodation for their father was the main issue in front
of three children, to break the peaceful life of them. The father finally got
rid of his wife, in many situations of the daily life, he was making any unreasonable
troubles even more severe demands on their children. Compel the elder one went
back home from oversee and having serious family argument.

Having the great prospect was the girl she was working
in the big company to be a GM, helping her by her Shi Fu when she was a little
girl. She was a rich white collar with big houses and luxury car. Even she swore
she will never touch the family again, but because of the family affection, she
has settled and helped many cases for this family quietly.

Finally all members of family knew that even we were
from one family, but the communication each other was the most important thing
in this family.

I can hardly understand the reason why I can not make my dream comes true all those years. You can say, yes, I am a loser. But I am never defeated. it has been ten years when the decision was made. I just follow everyday and seldom consider my aim, this time I will take a close look to what the problem is. Sometimes you need to look back so that you can adjust yourself of your journey.Where my problem is? I should absorb more knowledge since I don’t have many privileges. But my time is limited, I must make my action fast. The problem is that I am lack of money, if I have much money, everything is easy. But make much money is not an easy thing.Obstacle are those frightful things when you take your eyes from your goals.How to make money?1.WritingI never see how it is worked you gain money when you write.2.WorkWorking is the most income source for most people, but you can never get more time and more money.3.entreprenurThis is the best way to get what you desired, but not for everybody, it has much risk when you win at the same time you fail. Howerver it is still need to be tried.4.stock marketIn China, the stock market also contains lots of risks, you’d better think twice before you decide to play.5. goods salesIf you play hard, you will perform well, and it is how many people earn money. But there is still many things you need to get to know, what is people’s need, how you can server them well.

There are an automatic door in my community entrance for safety. We have to swip the identity card to open the door which in order to fobid outsides entry.  It also bring us inconvenience to us although the intentions is good.  We have to stop to find the identity card and swip to enter,  that's terrible experience when I take many things in my hand or wear a thick gloves and riding a e-bike.  The door will closed in less than half minutes,  we always worried it will closed suddenly and hit us.      That must be some ways to improve the doors.      But I found an interesting thing in the other hand.  The door will keep open if you cover the sensors of the door  with your hand .  So, we have been used to cover the sensor for others when we pass the door.  We conscious to do that for others and we always receive a "thank you" or a grateful smile.  All of us to do that not only the young men but also old men and kids. We always don't  leave the door until all the people want to go in and out passed at the time,  and maybe we will cover the sensor one by one.  We communicate less and less even we live in the community or as neighbors in the morden world.  The door give us a chance to express our friendly with each other.  That alway make me happy and feel that I live in a good community.      I think it's a good thing for us although that maybe not safety enough to help "stranger" to enter in our community.

It is often said that three times for important thing.
Anita is a very important friend in my life, I have written a lot about her story
in my blogs, I believe many people read my blogs has already mentioned her life,
her work and her family.

She was still working in Cambodia since three years
ago, every meeting we had was only when she came back and I was strongly
complain her about ignore my existence, I knew how busy she was, sometime she is
a frequency traveller for her business, maybe one night in Beijing and the next
day in Shen Zhen, I can understand. But this long holiday spring festival I had
to meet her, so I asked her at the long time ago, before one week of the
meeting, I said, hi my dear, when I can borrow you entirely, only one day
please. She knew it was a joke, this was the way in between.

Luckily we met at yesterday was the third day of lunar
day, I was told she missed me as same as mine, She wanted to see me at the
first holiday day, She was afraid to missing the chance, because of Chinese new
year is important for the family, she can not control her time sometime. I
found a restaurant very special, delicious seafood dumpling and mango yoghurt
which are our favourite.

I am so happy to know she is learning Gu Zheng
instrument to kill her leisure time and show me the songs she play in MP3, it
is amazing I cannot believe she can does so well, she is smart. What I can report
to my performance of this year is my book of 2018, and told her I am still
study EF English which I learn every day for one class on line. The mean is I
don’t waste my golden time, I am still a good student consciously.

Anyway, the time was so short, after I knew she has
not had the plan to stop her work yet, I told her as long as you are happy with
your work and good healthy, you do what you like, I am always support you and
waiting you come back in Beijing every day.

This week is the last working days before spring

festival holidays, as normal, some guys whose hometown are far away from
working place have asked for leave in advance in order to avoid rush hours on
freeway. Inevitably, no matter how many days you ask for leave ahead of
holiday, the only way which must be passed have already stuck in heavy traffic
for driving long distance back to hometown. It was really a spectacle during
the past years which there are no many means of transportations except by
ordinary train. That is also a golden age for scalpers, nowadays, as the
increasing of private car and public transportations developed in recent five
years. There are more choices for selection especially more and more people
choose to take private car as the first option, not only it is convenient for
moving for visiting relatives during holidays, but it can greatly save time
that you don’t need wasting time in the station to waiting train or bus which
could be late. But, taking private cars also has their problems that too many
cars surged through freeway during several holidays caused traffic jam, what’s
more, the terrible thing is if you are clogged in freeway that means you will
endure hunger, thirst even can’t find a place for pee. Normally, before spring
festival, the passenger flow will follow up the direction that from east and
south to west and north. After spring festival, the opposite passenger flow
will do over that really a big challenge to public transport. Anyway, each
means of transport has its advantage and disadvantage, I hope everyone can
enjoy a happy time and safely go and come.

Another busy day slipped by. I am supposed
to have a laid-back life, to have a lot of time to rest. But supposed is a
trick word and you never know. Here’s my schedule for today and you can
say it has nothing to do with laid-back. Get up at 6:30, prepare breakfast, and then
drive my son to school. Spend two entire hours in tidying up the rooms. Considering
the fact that I had five days in hospital, and I have to say that is a hell of lot
work. Do the laundry, prepare and have lunch. Then I go to the bank and the community
service center to prove one thing: I can’t afford my hospital bills and I need
help. Really it’s a simple math problem and even a primary school student can
tell that my family income is less than my hospital bills. Besides, when I started
my THP therapy, my doctor told me that if I paid 9 perjeta and I could get 10
for free. Nobody mentioned that “free” requires of an extremely complicate
process, which like the hospital, the insurance company, refuses any kind of reasonable
simplifying, even just for a simple math problem. This process involves my company,
my husband’s company, community service, the bank, my parents, Civil office bureau,
department of housing management…. So, that’s just a start. BTW, I haven’t got
my request approved by the community service, because the person in charge was
on a meeting. Now when I finally come home, I have daily
learning to finish, dinner to prepare, a son to pick up, homework to check….

Time always rushes by in the hustle and bustle of life, anyway, anytime and anyhow.